What OCD is Like: An Episode in Buenos Aires (Video)

by Matt B. on June 5, 2011

What OCD is Like: An Episode in Buenos Aires from Matt Bieber on Vimeo.

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Lian June 5, 2011 at 3:17 pm

Hey–excellent follow-up.  I’m not gonna jazz you for no tripod cause you held it real steady.  But this gave good insight into why knowing that a worry is meaningless has nothing to do with being able to shake off the worry or making it less real.  You must have a strong visual (and probably more than visual) imagination and ability to ideate–although, all the more painful to have it turned against yourself like that in such a sustained manner. 

 

Matt June 5, 2011 at 10:47 pm

Ha – yeah, that’s the downside of being on the move, I guess: no room in the knapsack for extra gear.  Maybe I’ll track down a 007 tripod one of these days.

I think I overstated how much I’m actually aware that the worries are imaginary while I’m in the middle of them.  That’s a perspective I can access some of the time – as someone with OCD, I know I have a tendency to worry about  imaginary events and their imaginary consequences.  But I’m often unable to access that perspective while I’m in the midst of an episode.  At those times, the worries seem very, very real.

Matt June 5, 2011 at 10:47 pm

Ha – yeah, that’s the downside of being on the move, I guess: no room in the knapsack for extra gear.  Maybe I’ll track down a 007 tripod one of these days.

I think I overstated how much I’m actually aware that the worries are imaginary while I’m in the middle of them.  That’s a perspective I can access some of the time – as someone with OCD, I know I have a tendency to worry about  imaginary events and their imaginary consequences.  But I’m often unable to access that perspective while I’m in the midst of an episode.  At those times, the worries seem very, very real.

Lian June 6, 2011 at 2:48 pm

The realness of the worries came across clearly.  If they didn’t seem real, they wouldn’t be worries.  So, no problem there. 

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